Life Shouldn't be this busy.

I wanna have time for myself too.

What was planned for me is different.
It looks like the company's taking away my time this weekend.
Weekend:

• Saturday: work from 9am to 6pm. Finish the ICT modules, ICT training (as if I don't know what to teach), etc.


• Sunday: Jaga booth masa exhibition. I hate this. I really hate this.


• Saturday (my own plan that has been taken away): See my sister, Didi.


• Sunday (my own plan that has been taken away): Kayak!

What to do now?

Found Nemo

Hey... I've bought Finding Nemo at last -- DVD version. Everything's great. The picture's beautiful. The story's really fun and touching at the same time. Unlucky me tho, got some reading error near the end of the movie. I bought two other stories, in VCD form. One is just okay, despite poor picture quality, I still can watch the movie. A new movie. A pirated VCD. What to expect? Of course poor quality pictures. The other VCD was supposedly a Thai movie but it doesn't seem to work. Dammit!

A housemate's a little bit confused, I guess. It looks like I ain't myself buying movies. Just not like me. Not like the usual me. I don't complain. It's just once in a blue moon. So, sometimes we have to walk out of the shell too, right?

Kecantikan Lelaki Kegagahan Wanita

Kecantikan lelaki

Kecantikkan seorang lelaki bukan kepada rupa fizikal tetapi
pada murni rohani
Lelaki yang cantik.....................
Adalah lelaki yang mampu mengalirkan airmata untuk ingatan,
Adalah lelaki yang sedia menerima segala teguran,
Adalah lelaki yang memberi madu, setelah menerima racun,
Adalah lelaki yang tenang dan lapang dada,
Adalah lelaki yang baik sangka dan,
Adalah lelaki yang tak pernah putus asa.
Kecantikkkan lelaki berdiri di atas kemuliaan hati
Seluruh kecantikan yang ada pada Muhammad yang umi
dalah kecantikan yang sempurna seorang lelaki.

Kegagahan Wanita

Kegagahan seorang wanita bukan kepada pejal otot badan,
tetapi pada kekuatan perasaan,
erempuan yang gagah.................
Adalah perempuan yang tahan menerima sebuah kehilangan,
Adalah perempuan yang tidak takut pada kemiskinan,
Adalah perempuan yang tabah menanggung kerinduan setelah tinggalkan,
Adalah perempuan yang tidak meminta-minta agar di penuhi egala
keinginan,
Kegagahan perempuan berdiri di atas teguh iman,
seluruh kegagahan ini ada pada Khatijah yang ehsan.
Adalah kegagahan sempurna bagi seorang perempuan... ...

thanks hoodgirl

Thanks Nad.

Nad, thanks. It was nice talking to you, tho I didn't expect you could be that sharp to guess about the card. I am okay. I am really okay, but I have to admit it left an impact on me somehow. I'm not really sure how to explain about the impact. She's not mine for a long time already. So, nothing should happen actually. Furthermore, I was expecting the card too.
It's kinda weird, isn't it?

I'm bent

If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk

If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces

Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Matchbox 20, Bent

Walimatul Urus

Jam 7.40pm. Selepas Maghrib. Rintik-rintik hujan baru sahaja berhenti apabila aku tiba di perkarangan rumah selepas ia turun buat beberapa ketika. Agak lewat aku tiba di rumah hari ni kerana Didi beria-ia nak bertemuku. Janji asal untuk bertemunya pada hari Ahad nanti dibatalkan. Ada perancangan lain, katanya.

Seakan ada gamitan dari peti surat, membawa aku kepadanya.

Ah.. memang ada surat rupanya. Sampulnya seolah-olah kukenali. Apa tidaknya, suatu ketika dahulu sampul surat sebegitu rupa selalu bertamu kepadaku. Detik jantung seakan bertambah pantas walaupun kehadirannya memang dalam jangkaan -- walaupun tidak sepenuhnya. Sebenarnya, tidak kujangkakan secepat ini aku menerimanya.

Di bahagian belakang sampul surat tertera satu nama yang amat biasa bagiku suatu ketika dulu; yang sebenarnya sudah agak lama tidak kusebut. Aku menjangkakan sekeping kad di dalamnya tetapi dari luar ia seakan sekadar setebal sekeping kertas yang biasa digunakan untuk menulis surat.

Baru tadi kusebut berkenaan kisahku sepanjang dua tahun lebih ini kepada Didi, adikku. Biarlah buat sementara ini aku sendiri dulu. Masih banyak persediaan yang perlu kubuat. Biarlah cuma sekali yang gagal. Aku tidak mahu ia berulang. Ala.. kalau susah-susah pun... ambil aje adik sendiri nanti; Didi kan ada. Aku berseloroh dengan Didi. Tak sangka pulak sesuatu yang kusebut-sebutkan sudah tiba rupanya.

Benar. Di dalamnya sememangnya terdapat sekeping kad. "Walimatul Urus" tertera dalam tulisan rumi, begitu juga dua nama yang amat biasa bagiku (walaupun kini ia hampir-hampir menjadi 'taboo' buatku). Kebetulan pula rakan serumah -- Man, Haidi dan Bi'in -- sedang duduk berbincang selepas solat di ruang tamu. Kulayangkan kad yang belum kubaca tadi kepada Man sambil tersenyum. Biarlah dia yang membacanya dulu. Aku lebih rela membacanya selepas dibaca oleh rakan-rakan yang lain.

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Dahlah... malas nak sambung. Kalau aku sambung, nanti aku masukkan sebagai komen kat dalam ni....

Nur Hussein's Linux Checkpoint

This is a Linux update. I have a friend who's apparently a Linux nerd. Sort of, I might say. He made a Linux patch... a great Linux patch. You better try it out, provided you're into grid computing. What's good about this patch is that it is based on the work of Eduardo Pinhiero's checkpoint patch, which actually works if you are still using kernel 2.4.2, but made possible to work for Linux kernel 2.4.22 by Nur Hussein's port of epckpt. I can't comment much tho, because I don't use my PC for grid computing. Just not yet. :P

Straight to the URL

This is the link to some of the contents of the Seventh book of Saga Artakusiad. Sorry... I ripped the URL straight away from the source.

Save Me

I feel my wings have broken in your hands
I feel the words unspoken inside
And they pull you under
And I will give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted
All my dreams are fallin' down
Crawling around...

Somebody save me
Let your warm hands break right through
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay (stay with me)
Stay
C'mon, I've been waiting for you

I see the world as folded in your heart
I feel the waves crash down inside
And they pull me under
I will give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted
All my dreams have fallen down
Crawling around...

Somebody save me
Let your warm hands break right through
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay (stay with me)
Stay
C'mon, I've been waiting for you

All my dreams are on the ground
Crawling around...

Somebody save me
Let your warm hands break right through
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay with me (stay with me)
I made this whole world shine for you
Just stay
Stay
C'mon, I'm still waiting for you

- Remy Zero, Smallville Theme Song -

Two weeks gone.

About slightly less than 3 months to go. Today is the last day for my class to finish the second module, Networking Essentials. My students are using SSH with enthusiasm. There was a major problem just now tho, they keep shutting down others' PC. It has been rectified, together with some added enthusiasm to learn more about Linux... hopefully.

Anything But Ordinary

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rahter be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is this beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
I'm feeling permanent
No way I won't taste it
Dont wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Avril Lavigne, Anything But Ordinary